Somehow it’s ended up nearly a fortnight since I last posted and I honestly don’t know how. Time always seems to slip away from you when you’re really depending on it… it’s only two weeks until my first dissertation is due now and I’m sooooo nervous. I’m actually HATING summer me for opting to do two dissertations now… seriously what was I thinking.
Anyway, I’ve been thinking more and more recently about how glad I am that I actually started this blog. It may be small and I may be rubbish at posting on time (you can say that again!) but it has seriously given me so much joy. It sounds ridiculous, but I think just having an outlet to collect my thoughts and ideas and share them with people is doing me so much good.
I’ve never really been an outgoing or confident person. In fact, I’m usually quiet and shy around new people. I’ve always been afraid that people won’t like me, that I’ll be too loud, unfunny or embarrassing. Even though I tell myself that I shouldn’t care – “be yourself and if they like you it will be genuine!” – it’s not always easy to be confident!
However, this blogging endeavour was a real challenge to me – to put aside the fear of ‘not being good enough’ and just do what I enjoy!
For me, fashion has made me feel better about the way I look. I’ve struggled with an eating disorder in the past which has made it hard for me to look in the mirror and like what I see… but with a good outfit, you can truly feel on top of the world. I especially love vintage fashion as I think it tells a story about the past – the fact we have so many amazing eras to mix and match makes it even better!
Throughout my degree, I’ve always had in mind that I would someday like to teach. I love sharing my knowledge (and fervent geekiness) with people and inspiring others. However, I’ve realised that blogging also gives me the opportunity to speak to an amazing audience of people too. Not only that, but it’s the chance to be real and open up about things which often go unsaid. In the process, I’ve learned I like writing about not just fashion but body image, mental health and self-confidence too.
It’s ultimately the chance to speak out and say – we all need to be more real with each other.
So – although I’m new in this blogging journey, I’m really excited about the prospects it holds. I’m still nervous and doubtful about whether or not I’ll ‘succeed’, but how do you define success anyway? For me, it’s been enough in itself that this blog has given me the confidence to pose in pictures and post them online or to social media! I just hope that I will be able to inspire more people to gain confidence in themselves too.
Just as a heads up – in the next four weeks I have several deadlines approaching, so my posts won’t be as frequent as I’d like! However, after April 20th – I’M FREEEEEE (like the Genie moment on Aladdin!!) Please let me know what you’d like to hear from me, I absolutely love hearing from you and finding out what you enjoy from my blog!!
Jacket – Vintage Laura Ashley
Top – Primark